[arachnoiditis]

thanks to you all for the welcome, i have been up all night due to pain and the fact that the lortab's seem to act like a big pot of coffee. but i have been reading boss's cfl grow, and have to say i was very impressed by it. ive also read so many other stories tonight and truely am glad i found this site. i appreciate the well wishing and prayers and same goes out to those in need. and for me growing here i dont think i want to risk it after hearing the horror stories of someone who was growing for pain and was given 10 yrs and house was taken and sold. my house is all i have , im unable to work and live on very meager funds, and just dont think im ready to risk it. i feel so trapped in between the benefits and consequences that i just dont know what to do anymore. and as far as my area goes lets just say im very close to roanoke, Va . .... maybe someday my country will stand up for me the way i have stood up for her! and realize that im just trying to find peace of mind and body in this pain ridden and worried existence that is my life. now please dont get me wrong , i LOVE life but im not IN LOVE with my life right now. well i hope to speak with all of you later tonight , but now i have to lay down