[troublecall]

Wow, thanks everyone. I guess I got stuck in a big ol rut here and thought I was big enough to take on the world. All I did is get old and tired of hitting the brick walls but I still think things have been good.

Yeah I just can not sleep thinking about my son. I want to help but that might be the biggest part of his problem... me. I am too giving and too soft cause like a lot I lived under a preachers roof and he was hard on me and I wanted to leave and they even helped me put all my possesions in my trunk after I graduated from High School. Yes I went to a couple of semisters of college and then the Air Force and got a degree in Aerospace Engineering - or maybe it is Aircraft Electronics what ever it is I went to so many corprate schools and used my GI bill up for other studies that I am one educated idiot. I study all the time in computers and networks, I love the stuff.

But everyone is great out there. I guess I know it is time for a change and it is very hard to just turn it all over and say here we go.... again. But ain't that what really makes life fun?

Thanks so much for all the input! I am feeling encouraged to move on to new adventures again. Maybe I will even feel like I am not that old.