Lady Pothead
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I was wondering. I
know there are some Vets on this board, and I know a couple people have PM me about PTSD. So, I have a couple of questions I hope people can help me clear up.
Last week was BAD. I had no smoke, but I spent 4 nights and five DAYS with my Mom and BF and friend from EUROPE....In a tiny hotel room! AND NO ONE FOUGHT!!! I was never alone for more than ten minutes! In the fucking town I was abused in for years! It was liking having what I imagine is one bad trip.
The entire time, I'm having like a huge meltdown, mostly in my head. But my family and BF know me like no others. I saw the worried glances. I started to recover after some sleep the first night, and having my around mother helped. It calmed me, reminded me that I was safe. Her cat DIED while she was helping me clean out some stuff from a storage locker. My Mom fucking rocks and I'll kick my husband ASS for saying anything against her!
Oooohhhhh.... I'm gonna have to smoke again, so I can sleep!
Having my BF and Mom go to court to enforce my RO against my husband? I owe them debt I can never repay. We with boobs stand united! You messed with the WRONG PEOPLE. MY PEOPLE. ME.
Anyway. Rinse and repeat. I found a roach in said locker, and finally had ten minutes alone to smoke it before bed. Huge difference.
I did much better.
Now I'm back in hiding from my crazy husband. I'm triggering all over the place, and the dreams are back.
I have been smoking whatever I get from someone very close to me. He always gets GREAT stuff, so I never haggle. I just dig deep and fork it over. I just smoked half a joint, and feel much better.
What has worked for you? Any suggestions would be very much appreciated.
Lady Pothead
know there are some Vets on this board, and I know a couple people have PM me about PTSD. So, I have a couple of questions I hope people can help me clear up.
Last week was BAD. I had no smoke, but I spent 4 nights and five DAYS with my Mom and BF and friend from EUROPE....In a tiny hotel room! AND NO ONE FOUGHT!!! I was never alone for more than ten minutes! In the fucking town I was abused in for years! It was liking having what I imagine is one bad trip.
The entire time, I'm having like a huge meltdown, mostly in my head. But my family and BF know me like no others. I saw the worried glances. I started to recover after some sleep the first night, and having my around mother helped. It calmed me, reminded me that I was safe. Her cat DIED while she was helping me clean out some stuff from a storage locker. My Mom fucking rocks and I'll kick my husband ASS for saying anything against her!
Oooohhhhh.... I'm gonna have to smoke again, so I can sleep!
Having my BF and Mom go to court to enforce my RO against my husband? I owe them debt I can never repay. We with boobs stand united! You messed with the WRONG PEOPLE. MY PEOPLE. ME.
Anyway. Rinse and repeat. I found a roach in said locker, and finally had ten minutes alone to smoke it before bed. Huge difference.
I did much better.
Now I'm back in hiding from my crazy husband. I'm triggering all over the place, and the dreams are back.
I have been smoking whatever I get from someone very close to me. He always gets GREAT stuff, so I never haggle. I just dig deep and fork it over. I just smoked half a joint, and feel much better.
What has worked for you? Any suggestions would be very much appreciated.
Lady Pothead