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[Virgin Ground]

Mental health is still a bit of a touchy subject. It shouldn't be.
I'm sure your doc meets with all kinds. Those willing to get help immediately as well as some who are in denial and become irate at the mention that they need some sort of mental counseling. Maybe your doc was surprised by your willingness.

 

[Preston9mm]

Mental health is still a bit of a touchy subject. It shouldn't be.
I'm sure your doc meets with all kinds. Those willing to get help immediately as well as some who are in denial and become irate at the mention that they need some sort of mental counseling. Maybe your doc was surprised by your willingness.

Gotta admit.... I may come off as unapproachable for something like that. She has a pretty accurate history of my military time, I gave her my full med record from the service.

I bring Mrs. Milly along to help grease the skids.... and remember shit for me, but it seems she was still a bit leary about bringing it up

But... on a good note, the "surprised" look on her face was one of excitement.

She totally agreed, and made the appropriate referrals.

 

[Virgin Ground]

You made an important step. Those are hard to make when you feel like you are shoulders deep in shit. Proud of you P.

 

[InTheShed]

I agree with VG. Even doctors can have a hard time bringing up basic medical issues when there are stigmas attached. I remember reading that obesity was another one that often goes unmentioned during visits because they don't want to be accused of fat-shaming.

I'm glad the appointment went well. Here's to better days ahead!

 

[Van Stank]

Gotta admit.... I may come off as unapproachable for something like that. She has a pretty accurate history of my military time, I gave her my full med record from the service.

I bring Mrs. Milly along to help grease the skids.... and remember shit for me, but it seems she was still a bit leary about bringing it up

But... on a good note, the "surprised" look on her face was one of excitement.

She totally agreed, and made the appropriate referrals.

Not a lot of us are good with opening up to shrinks. Lots of pride and machismo in our community and for whatever reason we tend to be afraid to ask for help out of fear of judgement. Good on you for not falling victim to that fear. Lots of good can come from bringing things into the light when you find the right person.

I still got a lot of friends that suffer from shit and they won't go talk to anyone and ultimately turn to the bottle for help and lets be honest....we know that shit ain't no help at all. I used to drink a lot as a younger guy but saw the writing on wall early on and learned to live life without it . If I choose to do it now, its a social thing only...not a coping thing.

Cannabis helps sometimes when my demons pop up. Usually happens around the times of buddies death 'anniversaries and what not, but not always. I am able to look at things from different perspectives and think my way through some of the dark times. Other times, not so much. Thats when the ability to compartmentalize comes into play. Lock that shit down until you have the time and energy to deal with that monster.

Give me a ding if you ever need an ear to bend brother, I'm a good listener. Just remember, lots of bottles have been emptied looking for an answer to a problem but I am pretty sure none of those bottles ever contained a solution.

 

[Scottsquatch]

Now I just look like a hermit to the outside world. I rarely leave, and have guests even less frequently. LoL

That's me to a "T" Preston.

 

[Van Stank]

That's me to a "T" Preston.

I think thats a lot of us to a "T". I tend to be skeptical of everyone and rarely am comfortable in public. I can count the number of people I deal with on a weekly basis on one hand (aside from here). Being a hermit is fine by me LOL.

 

[Tony Urban]

I found it helpful to talk to a counselled / psychologist. A neutral party that will listen and help provide some guidance, to deal with stress, anxiety, and other things resulting from our experiences.

I noticed a few of your symptoms align with my own reactions from using cannabis. Particular methods and strains. Increased heart rate. Memory. A few others. So on top of the relief I get, there are also effects that I am noticing that I am not a fan of. Perhaps the an

I think thats a lot of us to a "T". I tend to be skeptical of everyone and rarely am comfortable in public. I can count the number of people I deal with on a weekly basis on one hand (aside from here). Being a hermit is fine by me LOL.

x2

 

[ProfessorFlora]

Hey P Man. I'm officially winning the lateness competition! By so much in fact I feel I need to apologise
I hope you can get yourself sorted brother. I know how bad things can get as I've suffered with clinical depression for over half of my life. It's under control now but I'm constantly reminded of the past by my many hundreds of scars that cover much of my body like tiger stripes. Even in hot weather I wear a long sleeve t-shirt when I'm around people. I went at it alone for over a decade before eventually asking for help. Wish I'd done it sooner but it took finding the right person to help me. Make sure you look after yourself brother.

The conversion is awesome by the way and you should be proud

 

[nobodyhere]

I think thats a lot of us to a "T". I tend to be skeptical of everyone and rarely am comfortable in public. I can count the number of people I deal with on a weekly basis on one hand (aside from here). Being a hermit is fine by me LOL.

Yep. Me.

As far as guests it's mostly dog or horse people, cause they are the only ones who can seem to not get their ass ate by my dogs.

 

[KingJoe83]

Yeah... makes sense....

I can be a BITCH from time-to-time....

Who can't bro

Being human has it test bro.

Just chill bro it always works itself in the end.

 

[KingJoe83]

Are we all gonna hug and get high now or what?

"Group hug in the shower everybody "

Lmao

 

[KingJoe83]

So... I guess a little explanation is in order for the erratic behavior & slurred videos lately.....


I've taken a bit of a beatdown lately with my mental and physical health. I've seen specialist after specialist without any progress.. literally almost a year now without answers.

I've been hitting the bottle a whole lot harder than i should lately & really need to knock it off... This shit isn't healthy.

My apologies to y'all for bringing all my nonsense into these threads. I get a bit overwhelmed easily.... that's where anxiety turns into irritability. That's just not me....

Love y'all and really appreciate ya hangin' here.... You're about the only adult conversation I get anymore...

Sorry Yoru down Preston

You can vent away any time man..

Wish there was something I could do to help you smile more.

Dude you need to out the bottle down man. It hurts you and everyone around when drinking for the wrong reasons homie .

Takes a good person Preston to come forth and man up say sorry recognize what you need to do now.

Bottle down is good step . Hate seeing a man down dude .

 

[Scottsquatch]

Group hug in the shower everybody "

No! Watch out for the Alfred Facecock!

 

[SQl2kGuy]

Hey bro, thought I do a fly by.. Been a few weeks... Sorry to hear that you are not in the " best " of health, and sorry to see you are off to a slow start in the grow house... Always seems to work out though.... Just wanted to say " Sup " to the only ones that matter to me figured this would be the best spot.... Meantime A 420 family friend helped me out so just wanted to dump a few photos in your spot as well.. I know its cool....
...
Dark Devil Auto day 50 #1 of 3 that made it ( these fuckers seem to have genetic issues they just up and Die... ) Planted around 15 these are the ones that are here..
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.. They are such a deep deep purple, my phone is such a piece of dung doesn't do the plant justice.. Can't mention no names around this piece, they know who they are.... These girls were started in the traditional manner, thrown into half and half perlite and Promix HP in 7 days... They have been fed and watered in the traditional outdoor manner, but have also been outdoors 100 %.. They are not done yet, but they are not gonna do much more either....

..... Side note, I did get a couple of males not pictured, First time for me on that though I don't make a habit of growing autos....

As always Green Days to all....

Hey @MaddHacker ... I'm glad I saw your post ... I'm on day 48 of the Dark Devils right now ... they are from Sweet Seeds.

I had 4 out of 7 seeds die on me ... the roots just kept spiraling like a "pig's tail" ... definitely something genetic.

We chose them because our family loves purple ... but they are really turning out to be a real disappointment.

BTW, are you going by the posted "8½ weeks after germination" harvest date?

The photoperiods we got from Sweet Seeds are doing great though ... and we love the Red Mandarin!

 

[SQl2kGuy]

Hey P Man. I'm officially winning the lateness competition! By so much in fact I feel I need to apologise
I hope you can get yourself sorted brother. I know how bad things can get as I've suffered with clinical depression for over half of my life. It's under control now but I'm constantly reminded of the past by my many hundreds of scars that cover much of my body like tiger stripes. Even in hot weather I wear a long sleeve t-shirt when I'm around people. I went at it alone for over a decade before eventually asking for help. Wish I'd done it sooner but it took finding the right person to help me. Make sure you look after yourself brother.

The conversion is awesome by the way and you should be proud

Hey there Lucky 7s ... it's always nice to hear from you

 

[Scottsquatch]

Love y'all and really appreciate ya hangin' here.... You're about the only adult conversation I get anymore...

I had to laugh when I read this. Ever since my PTSD got to the point that the VA deemed me unemployable, I have been a stay at home dad (AKA House-bitch). My wife travels a lot for work so I am basically left with my 3rd grade son for conversation. I know your pain so well Buddy...

I also made the step to see a shrinker. My mind is deteriorating man. I cant remember shit all anymore and my irritation is almost continuous now. The slightest thing can send me into a very black mood. I dont even want to get into the anxiety, depression, and paranoia. If I didnt do this, I'm pretty sure I'd be alone and single by this time next year. Best of luck to you my brother.

 

[Scottsquatch]

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[John Wick]

That's me to a "T" Preston.

Me too.

 

[John Wick]

Hey Mr. P, a little late but I finally got all caught up here.
Your new grow temple is looking like it's gonna be wild in there pretty soon.
Great job as always.