Just because I don't want to leave you guys without news.
I stopped growing and smoking too, because it was the right time for me to stop.
I just took the plants and put them in the garbage. Some of them were beautiful, the Bloody skunk were ready (clearly the winner ;-) but I just cut them and got rid of them, without even tasting them
What was dried, a whole bowl, also went to the garbage (may be the atami bloombastic is to clame, the AutoNight Queen was clearly too strong and causing paranoia and that kind of stuff, still, that's what drove me to throw it away).
I did not want to leave without giving news or telling the reasons behind my decision, that's couterproductive and doesn't help people, that's why I post this message...
The main reason was that I was simply smoking too much and I have to look for a new job, make changes in my life, and the weed was something that stopped me from doing that because I abused it a bit Still, MJ did not stop me from getting rid of it, so I can clearly say that there is no addiction and that you are still free of your decisions even if you are a heavy smoker.
I still beleive that MJ is something that can be great, that research will show all the benefits and that it still need support, but I also experienced the downside of it when smoked all day long - life happens in your mind, but nothing changes in reality, you forget a few things, important or not (skunks are too powerful nowadays say some close friends of mine who helped me in the difficult times, I am strong, but smoking too much when you are healthy doesn't help changing a life) - may be it is too confortable that way, when you need a deep change in life - this added to other things that did not go well but I can't blame MJ for that, on the contrary, I think it has been helpful going through shitty times to releive the pressure and think about stuff very deeply, but at some point, it's also something that could not become a way of life for me.
The point is that I needed some changes in my life, like meeting new people, doing stuff like exercise, going out, etc, and I felt that I needed to get rid of it to make room for new things. I needed to create a new environment for myself... it's not only MJ, MJ is only a small part of what I wanted to change in my life, but may be it was the starting point.
I post this messsage just because I see that a few people were worried, and because I think this message can also be helpful to some, may be, and I saw on this forum that some people suddenly leave without explanation, and it is not good at all, not to know why.
I hope all is fine with all of you; I am fine, no worries, I am not sick, nothing bad happened, it's just that it was the right time for me.
Take care all of you !
When It is time to stop it is time to stop. .
I did similar just over 12 years ago and it helped me put my life back where I thought it should have been... I now only just mj for medication and it helps loads...
Good luck with all the changes