I have severe anxiety ever since my first panic attack this year. I have frequent panic attacks now plus hyperventilation syndrome and insomnia because I have a fear that I will die in my sleep. I'm conscious of every single breath that I take and I don't remember what its like to breath normally. I'm in therapy and learning breathing exercises + coping techniques but they don't help. I've started yoga and am learning to meditate. I eat an extremely healthy diet. I've been prescribed lorazepam and my doctor has no problem prescribing lots of it and thats all he wants to do. The problem is it doesn't help. It lowers my pulse and makes me feel drowsy during a panic attack but I'm still unable to stop thinking of all the things that stress me out and after the pill wears off, I get extremely depressed and have crying fits. I'm now unable to go to my classes and have signed up for the same ones online because I feel too unstable for a classroom and I'm suddenly afraid to drive. I'm very sensitive of every sound and feeling. Everything feels more intense since my first panic attack and everything makes me feel like my heart is dropping in my stomach if that makes any sense. I have acid reflux for the first time in my life now and am also on prescription medication for that because of my anxiety.
I feel that my lorazepam has been a failure and I know that therapy is work and it will take time for me function normally again. I will not drop it but I need something else to help me along with it it so I decided to try something new to use with my therapy and I've decided that it will be medical marijuana. I'm that desperate. This week I went to a doctor and got a recommendation with my mom of all people. Surprisingly she has been very supportive. I have read a lot about marijuana online but its all just reading. I've never tried it even for fun and have no idea where to begin. I've always been kind of conservative and my friends are the same so they're of no help.
I know this probably sounds idiotic but I'm in a panic about going to a dispensary for the first time this coming week. My anxiety is making me make this into a big deal. I have no idea how to choose which medical marijuana is best for me, what to ask for when I go there or what to say. I feel like a complete fool and its so embarrassing. So basically my long post here is just about what should I ask for according to my symptoms and should I go for smoking, edibles, pills, vaporizing etc...? I need something that doesn't make me very high or lazy. I need to be able to function without anxiety with my studies and so that I can cope to become social again. I'm so tired of my anxiety. I've caused so my stress for my family since my anxiety disorder began. Are the people working in dispensaries always helpful and know what to recommend? Will I look like a complete loser if I have no idea what I'm doing? Should I try a few kinds? Is this a common feeling before trying this for the first time? Please help! I'm getting a panic attack just thinking about my first visit soon. My mom actually got a medical recommendation for this too for some pains and the stress shes been under since my anxiety began shes been having and shes so cool about it even though shes never tried any of this before either. I feel like an even bigger freak with her being so cool at her age and me just panicking even over this. I've never even had a drink or cigarette so this is a very big deal for me. Thanks to anyone who responds in advance!
I feel that my lorazepam has been a failure and I know that therapy is work and it will take time for me function normally again. I will not drop it but I need something else to help me along with it it so I decided to try something new to use with my therapy and I've decided that it will be medical marijuana. I'm that desperate. This week I went to a doctor and got a recommendation with my mom of all people. Surprisingly she has been very supportive. I have read a lot about marijuana online but its all just reading. I've never tried it even for fun and have no idea where to begin. I've always been kind of conservative and my friends are the same so they're of no help.
I know this probably sounds idiotic but I'm in a panic about going to a dispensary for the first time this coming week. My anxiety is making me make this into a big deal. I have no idea how to choose which medical marijuana is best for me, what to ask for when I go there or what to say. I feel like a complete fool and its so embarrassing. So basically my long post here is just about what should I ask for according to my symptoms and should I go for smoking, edibles, pills, vaporizing etc...? I need something that doesn't make me very high or lazy. I need to be able to function without anxiety with my studies and so that I can cope to become social again. I'm so tired of my anxiety. I've caused so my stress for my family since my anxiety disorder began. Are the people working in dispensaries always helpful and know what to recommend? Will I look like a complete loser if I have no idea what I'm doing? Should I try a few kinds? Is this a common feeling before trying this for the first time? Please help! I'm getting a panic attack just thinking about my first visit soon. My mom actually got a medical recommendation for this too for some pains and the stress shes been under since my anxiety began shes been having and shes so cool about it even though shes never tried any of this before either. I feel like an even bigger freak with her being so cool at her age and me just panicking even over this. I've never even had a drink or cigarette so this is a very big deal for me. Thanks to anyone who responds in advance!
