Ah... I didn't post that it was difficult. Three packs per day (when I could afford tobacco) would have driven me insane - I wasn't a part-time smoker, LOL. Like... Okay, I used to visit my brother from time to time, and sometimes he'd have some wicked good bud. So everyone would scamper out to the garage to get high. But you couldn't smoke cigarettes inside - so I'd miss the buzz, because I was walking around in his backyard, smoking menthols.
When I was married, I bought big bags of menthol and big boxes of menthol filter tubes, and the woman would roll up 60 to put into a can made for the purpose, and fill a plastic cigarette box that would hold 20 (she was quicker than I was... with a machine). More than once, I came home at night with part of a store-bought pack in my pocket, because I'd run out
. And then I'd smoke a bunch more.
Quitting was hard. Watching Pop take nearly two years to die of some horrible cancers after the doctor said he might have two to four weeks left, because he was stubborn and didn't want to leave Mom... wasn't enough. Neither was becoming so poor that I seemed to spend all my time wandering around town collecting the tarry tobacco from butts so that I could smoke it in my little metal bud pipe.
So, when I finally did (via tank style vaporizers and the generous gifting by someone of many industrial-sized nicotine liquid bottles "that he didn't like the flavors of, or probably bought by mistake, or something" (flavor??? it's got nicotine in it, it can taste like the inside of a dog's bloated corpse, who cares?)), well... I knew that, for me, quitting was sort of like falling out of an airplane while it was in flight - there was no way I was going to be able to go back. Besides, the smoking probably helped reduce the rage - and I really kind of like the rage
.
I just want one. Just the one. You know... From the second I wake up until the second I'm unconscious again. <SHRUGS> But it's only been two or three years, something like that, since I quit. I didn't bother to make a note of it. What would be the point? Be like one of those AA characters. "I haven't smoked a cigarette in 5 years, 7 months, 11 days, 2 hours, 4 minutes, and 17 NO, 18 seconds!" That's not quit, lol, that's just "I'm going to see how long I can go without one."
I know how long I'll go without a cigarette - forever. . . .
When I was married, I bought big bags of menthol and big boxes of menthol filter tubes, and the woman would roll up 60 to put into a can made for the purpose, and fill a plastic cigarette box that would hold 20 (she was quicker than I was... with a machine). More than once, I came home at night with part of a store-bought pack in my pocket, because I'd run out
. And then I'd smoke a bunch more.Quitting was hard. Watching Pop take nearly two years to die of some horrible cancers after the doctor said he might have two to four weeks left, because he was stubborn and didn't want to leave Mom... wasn't enough. Neither was becoming so poor that I seemed to spend all my time wandering around town collecting the tarry tobacco from butts so that I could smoke it in my little metal bud pipe.
So, when I finally did (via tank style vaporizers and the generous gifting by someone of many industrial-sized nicotine liquid bottles "that he didn't like the flavors of, or probably bought by mistake, or something" (flavor??? it's got nicotine in it, it can taste like the inside of a dog's bloated corpse, who cares?)), well... I knew that, for me, quitting was sort of like falling out of an airplane while it was in flight - there was no way I was going to be able to go back. Besides, the smoking probably helped reduce the rage - and I really kind of like the rage
.I just want one. Just the one. You know... From the second I wake up until the second I'm unconscious again. <SHRUGS> But it's only been two or three years, something like that, since I quit. I didn't bother to make a note of it. What would be the point? Be like one of those AA characters. "I haven't smoked a cigarette in 5 years, 7 months, 11 days, 2 hours, 4 minutes, and 17 NO, 18 seconds!" That's not quit, lol, that's just "I'm going to see how long I can go without one."
I know how long I'll go without a cigarette - forever. . . .
i was a 3 pack a day smoker when i finally gave it up. the longer you go the easier it gets.