Had a bit of a meltdown yesterday, couldn't for the life of me remember how to get the monitor out of it holder or get the battery off. haven't smoked any weed in a few days soy anxiety was a little high anyway and got worse from dealing with the monitor,then the hand tremors kicked in and frustration built up and I lost it. it was either punch holes in the wall or rip off the monitor.so off it came, without any cannabis it was a rough day I paced back an forth for 5 hours until I could handle the stress.
ok this heart monitor is going to make sleeping a nightmare... but I'll be awake thru it. I'm not a good sleeper without something dangling from my chest, if I wear a shirt it helps but I can't sleep with anything but my boxers on or I get tangled up in em. so I'll be trying to sleep on the couch, I get maybe an hour or two if lucky. is it odd I post so many message on my update my status ? when I look at other people's home page it doesn't seem like any people do. it's probably cuz I'm left handed, it's not easy being a lefty. I can't rember what I did yesterday,but I can remember my third grade teacher Miss Stroop stabbing the top of my head with the sharp end of her pencil an telling me if I tried harder I could write like a normal person. no wonder I have brain issues either that or all the chemicals I endured as a stripper. who knows
the last sunny day of the week... but I have another 9 am Dr appointment. they want to wear a heart monitor for a week. I guess it's worth it if it keeps me out of the cardboard box
Happy Saint Paddy's day ! A day for the wearing of the green, drinkin green beer, and of course smokin lots of the green too. see ya in southie... I totally forgot it was also evacuatetion day. we're over it now so the British can come visit anytime they want
Daylight savings is a real pain in the arse. between the stress of dealing my meds and figuring out the timer for the plants. ahhh " if I only had a brain "
Ok i survived the infusion. Had a really nice nurse that made the event bearable. The side effects were not so bad at first just a bit of nausea and anxiety. I figured once I got home I could smoke some nice indica I got (thanks son) it helped with nausea rite off, but the anxiety only goes away if I smoke an sleep. Hope the cannabis can catch up with this anxiety. Thanks for all the love, you guys rock?
Welp, I get my first imuno-surpressant infusion today. not sure what to expect. doc said it takes 6hrs to pump it into me then they have to monitor me for 3hrs Incase I have any "adverse" reactions. fingers crossed
Back from the edge, my pharmacy fudged up my prescription for one of my anti-seizure meds. I had to spend 4hrs talking with DR's and pharmacy manager. Welp, long story short I did get my meds... Or else I'd be in the hospital now. but the the ordeal left me with really high anxiety that I couldn't shake. luckily my upstairs neighbor gave me a really nice bud of some indica, that got me back on track. Insurance co's are evil