thepoisoninsidU
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Some writing i've done, i pain and pleasure, wasted and sober, this is me:
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the pleasure of pain, the pain of pleasure,
together, we will. we will steal the night,
take the stars into our pockets,
only to show them to eachother as we shine.
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(this is a song i wrote and recorded)
Starts with a wisper, then it flys away
leaving me alone, detatched and deranged
cold is in me, and it won't let go
memories of her, grab me by the throat
I will fade, into no more
fall in pain, fall to the floor
Maby i'll be free one day, but nothing good happens anyway
the pressure and sadness is always there, why do i even care
it starts with the yelling, then it swells inside
all this torment, all this fright
it turns into numbness, and the pain won't leave
as it starts to process, as it starts to creep
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try to kill the needles in my head, as they force their way out
i torment inside, fighting myself, forever inside i am dead
it oozes out of my eyes, it stabs my ears, pain is me, i am pain
all off my feelings are gone, i am an empty endless hole, fill me with hate
I can grow, but i will wilt, troubled by the endless guilt
Like a rose growing from a rock, i stand alone with nothing around
I stab you when you touch me, and i will make you bleed as i have blead
i infect, i infest as i have been infested with a dark cloud in my heart
Crawling to the ledge, i look over the side and see empty nothingness and it makes me whole
My eyes follow down as i fall, feeling free, feeling as one
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Trying to feel, but nothing i am
Doing what i see, can never amount to me
give and give and give, only to be my own word
nothing that has seen, can ever contemplate
drip, drip, drip, drain away my mind of nothing
i reach out, but i grab a nothing more
sanctify, the bloom becomes the spore
ever touch, what i could never have
beaten down, i become the scab
to be fallen, to be picked hollow
i think and yearn for that empty feeling
that i will never know, but is so real
what is real? i may never feel
stealing inside, to the amount of conception
taking down, all my heart, all my soul
something inside, i will never fill
screaming, weeping, my brain is seeping
immortal lust, for i will, the envelope is sealed
i know, what i don't and despise, what i hear
hateful sonages, trumpeting the end
my heart falls, my heart bends
flex to breakage, flex to death
my blood runs, my blood crept
engulfing fortitude, of a selfishness
i consume myself, i die in flesh
to nothing i have done, to nothing i become
deep incestral hate, my demons awate
contemplating, transgression, damn nation
tantalizing, spears of yesteryear
to them i become, i digress
i show what i feel, but burn it to the ground
falling at all, i know, nothing is tomorrow
cement pleasures, bitter as this feeling
what is this? nothing more than I
how is this? it is
why was this? it was
please stay, please feel
my immortal wounds of happiness
look into my soul, my eyes, my mind
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keep it all inside, nothing to hear my crys,
washed away dreams, an illusion in my eyes
While the nothing topples over me, something pushes inside,
broken on the ground, shadows fall around, engulfing infinity
and i lay helpless sprawled out, but when i look into you soul, i look into your eyes
Seeping into my veigns, the pain grows in depth, down to my heart, inside i have wept
it fills my body and won't let go, it fills my body with a cold painful snow
camping in the breeze, the sea breathing a tirying groan,
ever peaceful with you, near the fire grows, to shine across the sea, and shine across my heart,
is the way i feel, when i look into your eyes
but something happened, something inside
i met you there, and we cried
holding you close, holding you tight
drifting, drifting into the night
Hearing your crys, knowing your mind, watching me fall, helping me in time
The ledge is so far, but my leap so near, i just fall, crying, washing away your tears
Your eyes engulf me with love, eversoft is your touch
but together, this pain is shared, with one another, making us one
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These are my thoughts, these are my mind, tell me what you think, in due time. And roll a fuckin phatty.
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the pleasure of pain, the pain of pleasure,
together, we will. we will steal the night,
take the stars into our pockets,
only to show them to eachother as we shine.
----------------------------------------
(this is a song i wrote and recorded)
Starts with a wisper, then it flys away
leaving me alone, detatched and deranged
cold is in me, and it won't let go
memories of her, grab me by the throat
I will fade, into no more
fall in pain, fall to the floor
Maby i'll be free one day, but nothing good happens anyway
the pressure and sadness is always there, why do i even care
it starts with the yelling, then it swells inside
all this torment, all this fright
it turns into numbness, and the pain won't leave
as it starts to process, as it starts to creep
----------------------------------------
try to kill the needles in my head, as they force their way out
i torment inside, fighting myself, forever inside i am dead
it oozes out of my eyes, it stabs my ears, pain is me, i am pain
all off my feelings are gone, i am an empty endless hole, fill me with hate
I can grow, but i will wilt, troubled by the endless guilt
Like a rose growing from a rock, i stand alone with nothing around
I stab you when you touch me, and i will make you bleed as i have blead
i infect, i infest as i have been infested with a dark cloud in my heart
Crawling to the ledge, i look over the side and see empty nothingness and it makes me whole
My eyes follow down as i fall, feeling free, feeling as one
----------------------------------------
Trying to feel, but nothing i am
Doing what i see, can never amount to me
give and give and give, only to be my own word
nothing that has seen, can ever contemplate
drip, drip, drip, drain away my mind of nothing
i reach out, but i grab a nothing more
sanctify, the bloom becomes the spore
ever touch, what i could never have
beaten down, i become the scab
to be fallen, to be picked hollow
i think and yearn for that empty feeling
that i will never know, but is so real
what is real? i may never feel
stealing inside, to the amount of conception
taking down, all my heart, all my soul
something inside, i will never fill
screaming, weeping, my brain is seeping
immortal lust, for i will, the envelope is sealed
i know, what i don't and despise, what i hear
hateful sonages, trumpeting the end
my heart falls, my heart bends
flex to breakage, flex to death
my blood runs, my blood crept
engulfing fortitude, of a selfishness
i consume myself, i die in flesh
to nothing i have done, to nothing i become
deep incestral hate, my demons awate
contemplating, transgression, damn nation
tantalizing, spears of yesteryear
to them i become, i digress
i show what i feel, but burn it to the ground
falling at all, i know, nothing is tomorrow
cement pleasures, bitter as this feeling
what is this? nothing more than I
how is this? it is
why was this? it was
please stay, please feel
my immortal wounds of happiness
look into my soul, my eyes, my mind
----------------------------------------
keep it all inside, nothing to hear my crys,
washed away dreams, an illusion in my eyes
While the nothing topples over me, something pushes inside,
broken on the ground, shadows fall around, engulfing infinity
and i lay helpless sprawled out, but when i look into you soul, i look into your eyes
Seeping into my veigns, the pain grows in depth, down to my heart, inside i have wept
it fills my body and won't let go, it fills my body with a cold painful snow
camping in the breeze, the sea breathing a tirying groan,
ever peaceful with you, near the fire grows, to shine across the sea, and shine across my heart,
is the way i feel, when i look into your eyes
but something happened, something inside
i met you there, and we cried
holding you close, holding you tight
drifting, drifting into the night
Hearing your crys, knowing your mind, watching me fall, helping me in time
The ledge is so far, but my leap so near, i just fall, crying, washing away your tears
Your eyes engulf me with love, eversoft is your touch
but together, this pain is shared, with one another, making us one
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These are my thoughts, these are my mind, tell me what you think, in due time. And roll a fuckin phatty.
