Schnookie
Well-Known Member
Functional alcoholic.
That's the word that has described me for the last 30 years. Well, 32 years maybe.
I'm testing myself this month/year to a Dry January with some others with regards to alcohol and have now decided that I am going to include cannabis as well. It's a few days in, yeah, that's ok...
I can't even begin to recall the time that I didn't have a drink for a month. Probably never in adulthood. There's been very few intervals where even a week went by without alcohol. It's been so ingrained in my life since, jeez, my first drink was when I was 13. I had tasted beer before that, but never "drank" until my sister had a party in high school and I was drinking 7&7 until I passed out. I really didn't drink much at all for a few years after that. but once college and 18 years old & away from home took over, I was hooked. I grew and dealt in college also so went at least 5 years straight there with drinking and getting high daily. I recall one situation where I was challenged to go out and party with friends and not drink that night. I do remember it being an amazing, fun night. Think about that - I remember when I DIDN'T drink...and that situation was 26 years ago.
I'm 50 now so I guess introspection is happening.
So, having made this decision to be sober this month (and we'll see how long after if I choose), I included cannabis because I think I need to remove as much "external influence" on my mind and body as I can. I can certainly remember intervals without weed...there were years that I was dry of cannabis. Alcohol is just so much more easy to obtain in the south.
I've still got a grow finishing up and a journal which will be a few more weeks so there ought to be updates and a smoke-test this quarter some time.
Peace!
That's the word that has described me for the last 30 years. Well, 32 years maybe.
I'm testing myself this month/year to a Dry January with some others with regards to alcohol and have now decided that I am going to include cannabis as well. It's a few days in, yeah, that's ok...
I can't even begin to recall the time that I didn't have a drink for a month. Probably never in adulthood. There's been very few intervals where even a week went by without alcohol. It's been so ingrained in my life since, jeez, my first drink was when I was 13. I had tasted beer before that, but never "drank" until my sister had a party in high school and I was drinking 7&7 until I passed out. I really didn't drink much at all for a few years after that. but once college and 18 years old & away from home took over, I was hooked. I grew and dealt in college also so went at least 5 years straight there with drinking and getting high daily. I recall one situation where I was challenged to go out and party with friends and not drink that night. I do remember it being an amazing, fun night. Think about that - I remember when I DIDN'T drink...and that situation was 26 years ago.
I'm 50 now so I guess introspection is happening.
So, having made this decision to be sober this month (and we'll see how long after if I choose), I included cannabis because I think I need to remove as much "external influence" on my mind and body as I can. I can certainly remember intervals without weed...there were years that I was dry of cannabis. Alcohol is just so much more easy to obtain in the south.
I've still got a grow finishing up and a journal which will be a few more weeks so there ought to be updates and a smoke-test this quarter some time.
Peace!
