Ive posted elswhere her about my trying out cannibus after a couple of decade layoff. Its been weird. Ive tried 3 dif strains and they all make me very uneasy, but i keep trying it to overcome. I want tge mellow feeling i used to get before. I get an anxious feeling at first that makes me have thoughts like "what business do i have growing or smoking this at such risk"? Or " destroy the plants". " theyll get you in trouble". But i noticed now, that after a while im able to ride those thoughts out, and start feeling good. And the next day im ready to forge ahead. I think i need more of an indica tho. It also doesnt help that i have to be discreet and have little time to do it.