Welcome to my Beautiful Healing Brain Journal! 
Re: Sunshine On A Brainy Day — PS Dwarf Star Lights Up My Life
What's Update — 100% Organic Garden & Brain Rehab — Aug 17, 2017
Grow/Brain Rehabilitation Behaviour:
Dear 420 family:
I'm recovering from my headaches/migraines, what's important is that I stay on the oil and make sure I establish a stable dosing schedule. Also, there is damn construction out in front of our place, until November. Curses to grinding steel at 7:30am. To be honest, how would I know what works on these headaches if I didn't dose during my tough times. With the increased pain and pressure, I have increased from 6ml to 9ml.
And so far, I'm still chipper despite having my head in a vice. This is what my husband has noticed. I'm grateful that my increased smiling has lightened the mood because it is genuine. When you have a medical condition that is supposed to turn you into a monster, happiness is half the cure. Whaaat? You mean a medicine that makes me feel good about myself and there are no side fx?! Shut the front door on propaganda, open the door to life-extending oil.
It's been quite the emotional rollercoaster this month and it's not even over. However, I have passed major milestones in my grow/brain rehabilitation. This week I have had appointments with my medical team. Since I started my oil dosing schedule, it was important to me to disclose my secret of oil dosing rehab. I chose two people who are working with me the closest.
To maintain confidentiality, I can't say who they were, but I can proudly say now, that I have the support and secrecy of two loving and caring people on my medical team. What's important is that they are on board, because of the person that I am, not because they can outwardly support cannabis. And I totally get that.
They know that I have tried everything in my power to work with the specialists and it didn't work. They saw first hand how I was treated, and it brought me to tears back then. But now, I'm sooo past that, they were happy that it's working so far, period. They want me to live, you can't stop someone who's trying to save their life, naturally.
I got positive feedback on my worksheet that I made to collect my raw data. They said, that dosing schedule is what will bring both the medical and cannabis studies together, and there is nothing like that out there. In fact, one person said she had recommended CBD to trauma patients before and she didn't know why she never recommended that to me.
So there were lots of "ah ha" moments, and now I have the support of 2 people on my team. I'm making this process as safe and medically responsible I can, in order to change the medical teams' perspective on Cannabis used for brain trauma. Something they can't...turn...down. I know how the medical system works here regarding dementia patients, I learned it, inside out; now it's time to change the rules in how ALS and FTD patients are treated.
Just by reading this you are learning that Dementia is not a death sentence if treated early. So I am making sure I write all about my symptoms in the beginning so others may be privy to my red flags and why I demanded early diagnostics for answers, despite the doctors pushing me away.
Now I have a test result that shows early signs of FTD. Shame on them for the harsh BS I took from them in the beginning. But if it didn't happen, I never would have sought out this forum and made my own oil, therefore, I cannot fault them for their ignorance, it was meant to be. I'm just glad I didn't listen to them and followed my instinct to seek an all-natural, organic, karmic, alternative.
Even though I feel that I have fought tooth and nail to get to this point, I am starting to see positive reactions of people when I talk about THE oil that everybody's been reading about. They are so curious as to how, but they aren't surprised that I'm healing myself through my own efforts.
I'm sure everyone would exhaust every option in hopes to live with their true love. If my high-functioning, damaged brain can help others while I help myself, then maybe it will make up for the sacrifice people have paid so that I can grow. Thanks for reading my rambling, you guys inspire me so much
In my hand I hold my future...
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What am I grateful for? "support from my medical team"
Quote of the week: "It's working!
Excerpt from my book: "It is my hope to continue this open dialogue with medical professions as I know they truly want the best for me. I went from dying, to crying, to trying, to tolerating my condition long enough to make my own oil, my own medicine, my own way, in my own mind. I am awakening. "
My humble garden of positive change awaits you...
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3. Type: Kushie Kush CLONES ( Mother Born March 4, 2017)
Week: 7
Days: 49
(Clones cut June 8 — 22nd = 13 days to reroot.)
Temp: 24-28 (yikes)
RH: 44 - 57%
Strain: Indica
Technique: Cloning, 1 Top, HST & LST
Comments:
* The clones have been repotted and transplanted in their own spaces under the Dwarf Star. They don't look as pretty yet, but they are in their first week since being uprooted. I like to give clones 2 weeks in their new digs before I defol and get rid of their baby leaves and one legged leaves....lol. But right now it's more important to give them space to start a new routine, then I'll crawl all over them like catwoman over batman. Lol. Such a weird thing for me to write...lol.
*KKush Clone #1 — 3 Gallon self-watering pot
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*KKush Clone #2 — 5 Gallon self-watering pot
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*KKush Clone #3 — 2 Gallon self-watering pot
*thank goodness this journal post is shorter than usual, I need a break, but my brain needs to continue on during this pivotal time. Rest, Ice, Rest, buttered flavoured rice cakes. Mmmmm!
*Thank you for reading and giving feedback.
They sure are PW. I'm trying to keep down the amount of branches, in order to focus the plants strength more on the buds. Does that make sense? I've never focused on a chosen number, I just let the branches go. I'm hoping this theory works out on the clones because I know what the mother is capable of. Let's push her strain all the way.
If was admiring your masterful restraining of #3. I've had a couple clones get away from me lately. I'm still learning too, and clones are still new to me. They require a different approach for training, don't they?
I keep letting them get too tall before I start working with them. Good work on yours.
I'm so thrilled you're writing the book. It's a story that needs telling.
You're doing the best thing for your brain. Hey do you get to mix fish nutes in that batch you're cooking?
