MaPilot
Well-Known Member
Hello everyone. Let me start with a little about myself.
I was diagnosed Bipolar last year, however, I am sure I have been messed up my whole life. I really hate putting names on conditions, and feel kinda like a cop out for even labeling myself in such a manner. I guess I am old school. (46 yrs young).
In high school i smoked some to be popular and i guess forget my home life. I switched to alcohol in my 20s, and drank for the better part of two decades. I was still functional and contributed to my government via taxes, however, I was very unstable and always thought people were out to get me.
Fast forward to today, I am still unstable, lol. But working on improving myself. My therapist suggested I try medical MJ, to ease my anxiety and depression, we have been going through medications like crazy and they all have side effects that I do not care for.
So after all these years, I reached out to a coworker who I know smokes occasionally, and asked him for some smoke. The effects were amazing, besides eating my fridge (which i do not like) I was able to calm down and relax again.
So after a ton of research, It appears my state does not think of depression or anxiety as a reason for medical MJ. I have decided to try and grow a medical strain myself. Keeping it under legal limits is going to be an issue? dunno yet.
I have purchased a grow tent 4x4x6 and 2 large CFL's for veg and another two for flower, I also have a LED UFO to help. I ordered fox farm soil and nuts, also medical seeds, so I hope to be growing soon.
I will most likely start a thread fro my grow as i will need help for sure, However, I am concerned about being caught, I am using Tor browser, not sure if that is enough to keep me anonymous?
Thanks everyone. Hope to meet you all soon in my grow journal.
I was diagnosed Bipolar last year, however, I am sure I have been messed up my whole life. I really hate putting names on conditions, and feel kinda like a cop out for even labeling myself in such a manner. I guess I am old school. (46 yrs young).
In high school i smoked some to be popular and i guess forget my home life. I switched to alcohol in my 20s, and drank for the better part of two decades. I was still functional and contributed to my government via taxes, however, I was very unstable and always thought people were out to get me.
Fast forward to today, I am still unstable, lol. But working on improving myself. My therapist suggested I try medical MJ, to ease my anxiety and depression, we have been going through medications like crazy and they all have side effects that I do not care for.
So after all these years, I reached out to a coworker who I know smokes occasionally, and asked him for some smoke. The effects were amazing, besides eating my fridge (which i do not like) I was able to calm down and relax again.
So after a ton of research, It appears my state does not think of depression or anxiety as a reason for medical MJ. I have decided to try and grow a medical strain myself. Keeping it under legal limits is going to be an issue? dunno yet.
I have purchased a grow tent 4x4x6 and 2 large CFL's for veg and another two for flower, I also have a LED UFO to help. I ordered fox farm soil and nuts, also medical seeds, so I hope to be growing soon.
I will most likely start a thread fro my grow as i will need help for sure, However, I am concerned about being caught, I am using Tor browser, not sure if that is enough to keep me anonymous?
Thanks everyone. Hope to meet you all soon in my grow journal.
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. We are spreading the good news about cannabis and hemp to the world. In the past I had a history of self-destructive behavior myself. I find that a sativa kills my appetite. I get way high and can't eat a bite. Some folks it makes hungry I think but not me. Legal limits is a problem some places. Here in Colorado we did away with that BS. Anyone 21 or over can grow 6 plants legally. Which is why my wife and I are activists for legalization. We want everyone to be able to grow their own medicine if they choose to. I will be looking forward to your grow journal. To help you along we have the 
as for safety on here! 
